Let me at Thy throne of mercy find a sweet relief. Kneeling there in deep contrition, help my unbelief.

Tuesday, August 29, 2006

Perhaps we ought to be different

This past weekend I found myself in a situation that brought great anxiety and disturbance to me. I was confronted with, again, the question of whether we as seminary students are different. I was confronted with disappointment that many of us are not any different from the rest of the world. I witnessed the lifestyle of some seminarians that is just the same as the world. In my last post I asked the question whether seminary students should be different from the rest of the local congregation. After reading some people's comments and further pondering on this question, I've come to believe that while we should not be considered any more "sanctified" or special, there should be more expected of us.

The reason what I witnessed this past weekend greatly disturbed me is that I've seen a pattern in many seminarians' lives of a prolonged college lifestyle. We treat our dating relationships with casualness, just like the world does. We party the night away with shallow social exchanges, in an atmosphere that strangely resembles the "Hookup culture" . Why do so many of us come to a seminary where one studies the Bible in an academic setting, and conduct our off-campus life in a manner that really cannot be distinguished from the rest of the world?

I must confess and repent of my judging heart. I have sinned as I judged my fellow seminarians in their behaviors. I am definitely not the one to judge on how a seminarian should conduct his or her life. But I would like to encourage fellow seminarians and future seminarians to examine their own heart. Why are you at the seminary? How are you glorifying God and setting an example for church members, who are watching closely, by your lifestyle and relationships?

"Therefore be careful how you walk, not as unwise men but as wise, making the most of your time, because the days are evil." Eph. 5:15-16

In the latest 9Marks newsletter Owen Strachan, a student at Southern, wrote an article called Doing Seminary Well. I found this article very convicting, yet encouraging. There's much to be learned from it. Read it. May it be a valuable lesson to you as it is to me.

Monday, August 21, 2006

Are we any different?

Are we seminary students any different from the rest of the congregation? In a local church should those who attend seminary be expected to do more? Should we be considered the "cream of the crop"? Should it be assumed that we should teach and lead simply because we're in seminary? What is our role in the local church? Are we any differnt?

An issue came up at church today, and those questions have been racing through my mind. We are being trained and equipped formally in preparation for ministry. We are in seminary because we have the desire to serve perhaps in a fuller capacity, and we possess a level of maturity that our churches have deemed suitable for ministry (hopefully). We may obtain more knowledge on various subjects, such as church history, biblical languages, etc. We are different in that aspect. However, I personally don't think that we should be treated any differently from any other member in the congregation. Certainly we should not be perceived as the "cream of the crop" (someone at church actually referred to us by that). Yes, we are getting theological education in a more intensive and formal setting. But systematic theology and church history are not exclusive subjects to those in seminary. Pastors and teachers should be teaching doctrinally sound theology from the pulpit and in Sunday school classes. Congregations should be fed with biblical theology whether they're seminary students or housewives. Members of the local church can certainly benefit and grow in faith through learning of the lives of early church fathers and the Reformers. It's tempting for us seminarians to think that we're above others, or even that we've arrived. Being worshipped (that may be too strong of a word) or paid special attention and reverence by fellow church members certainly does not help us cultivating humility.

Every church member should be encouraged to be involved in some capacity of ministry, public or behind the scene. Serving is doing something when there is a need. It was suggested that if we have any desire for a particular area of ministry, we would be encouraged to inform the leadership and just do it. I agree that if we see a need in the local church we work with the leadership to meet that need. I would be against it if we start a new ministry to meet our own needs, our need to practice for future ministry, our need for a class credit, our desire for a particular ministry whether or not it's appropriate or needed at this church, or our need to show off our education. Of course no one is going to admit that's their intention in doing ministry. But let's be honest in examining our intentions. Doing ministry should always be for God's glory and for the benefit of the church; it should never be for our own glory and our selfish gain, whether you're a seminarian or CEO.

Also we shouldn't assume that every seminary student is fit to teach and be in leadership position. We may have the head knowledge, but many of us, in fact, a growing number of seminary students are fresh out of college without much life experiences (I'm including myself in this category). We are all in different places in life, maturity level varies greatly from one person to the next. The title of a seminary student does not warrant wisdom and maturity, sadly.

On the other hand, I know someone, a fellow seminarian, whose personal conviction is that he's in a season to learn and to grow. Therefore, instead of seizing an opportunity to serve even when the need is rather urgent, he is going to pass and focus on learning and receiving. I may sound a little bitter. But I simply cannot wrap my mind around this argument. You just can't segregate your life like that. You're always called to serve; you're always a part of the body of Christ, whether you're in school or retired. What do you have that you have not received? We as seminary students have this great privilege to receive formal theological training. I believe we are receiving more. Why hold on to it instead of sharing with brothers and sisters while you can?

It's tricky I find. While I don't think we should assume leadership and teaching position simply because we are in seminary, and while I dont' think we deserve any special attention and treatment, we do need to be mindful of the blessings from God through our seminary education. Share the blessings wisely and generously with brothers and sisters.

I may have been rambling on. I may have been ranting a little. I apologize to my fellow seminarians. Please know I didn't mean any disrespect. Any input will be welcomed, and feel free to correct me.

Monday, August 14, 2006

Some back to school thoughts

Classes begin tomorrow. The most popular question this past week has been, "Are you ready for school?" YES! Call me a nerd if you wish. I like going to classes. I love my studies at the seminary. I enjoy reading a lot (but because of my lazy nature, I appreciate the assigned readings in each class that keep me accountable). Once in a while I even enjoy writing papers. Seminary has been a tremendous experience. Southern Seminary has one of the best faculty in my opinion. When I think about my time here at Southern I'm always amazed by God's grace in leading me here.

At the beginning of each semester I'm always eager to see and learn what God will teach me and how He is going to mold me, not only through the academic training from the seminary, but also through ministry, relationships, work, and more. He's never failed to surprise me each semester with unexpected turns and sometimes trials in my personal life. And He's never failed to grant me more than sufficient grace to come out walking even more closely to Him. This semester will not be any different I suspect. Already there are new challenges and new responsibilities in ministry. And looking at my track record there will be issues that I'll struggle with. Somehow I am excited about those struggles and challenges. I've had some of the sweetest communion with God through difficult times.

By God's grace (I'm not taking this phrase lightly, I do recognize that it is God's grace alone) I've had one of the most amazing and fruitful summers. Having spent most of the first 24 years of my life with my grandparents and having seen them age and deteriorate rapidly these couple of years, I'm truly thankful for the 5 weeks I spent at home in Vancouver with them and my parents. I cannot express adequately with words how much I enjoyed and appreciate my trip home this summer. I also visited a Sovereign Grace church in Vancouver ( Crossway Community Church ). Although I didn't have time to establish any relationship at that church (Lord willing, someday I'd like to), I was encouraged and learned much from their Sunday services. Then I went to Indonesia. If you're interested in reading a bit about my trip you can go here . In a nutshell, it was a wonderful trip.

Now that I've recapped my summer I'm even more ready for the new semester!